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Sunday, January 24, 2010

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times....

"Restlessness and discontent are the first necessities of progress."
Thomas A. Edison

I am overwhelmed, and when I get this way, what do I do? I go to bed. EARLY.
This makes me feel like a complete failure, of course, because there are so many great things I need to work on in the studio. Instead of working on them, I go to bed. EARLY.
But after putting together so much work for my catalog submission last week, and grappling wtih so many things on the personal front, I am freaking exhausted. I have nothing left in my soul for creativity.
I know it's what I should be doing--burning the midnight oil to get shit DONE. But I feel like I am swimming through mud and not getting anywhere.
I think part of it is that I have all this pent up ideas and energy as it relates to my business. But the only time I get to do it is after my son goes to bed. And after he goes to bed, I'm just plain tired from life's many activities.
It doesn't help that life at the moment is pretty difficult in my house. So I guess I should be looking at the positive side of things: I am doing pretty great considering all the crap that is going on in my life.
But for someone who has always been able to drive herself, this is a hard place for me to be. To have so many ideas and not want to do any of them...
I think part of it is the pressure I've put on myself. For lots of reasons, this is the year that my business needs to make it. By that I mean get on the map and stay there and grow, grow GROW. I know, a tall order in this economy, but an order nonetheless.
I am not so usually down on things, but today I am. And for that I truly apologize.
But maybe by getting it out I can start anew. After all, I have things to DO.
So tonight I will go to bed. EARLY. And tomorrow I am dragging my ass out bed and stopping this pity party that I've started for myself. It's just too depressing for me!


  1. Oh I SO know that feeling. As you said, this is the year I need to make my business, it will be 5 years in business this year and I really am pushing to make it successful consistently. I find I get myself too worked up with too many ideas, designs, business tasks etc, so I am trying to schedule myself a bit better. I write a list of things I want to accomplish in the day, in order of importance. Since I also work a day job, this has helped immensly with the "omg so many things to do and no motivation to do them all!" feeling.

    Hang in there, you will find your rhythm and then you wont feel like you are beating yourself up :-)

  2. Your blog is the one I check first just about every day... to see what you have going on. I found out about Original Hardware the day you were Etsy's Featured Seller, and from then on, I was hooked. You have become a inspiration, and motivation for me. I am a jewelry artist of 3 years, and new to the world of selling, and having an online shop, photo taking, listing, and the whole busines side of things. Yes, overwhelming for sure! And I have found that your words have encouraged me. Your sucess!

    For what it's worth, don't underestimate yourself.... because to some your business is growing already on a map, and will even further grow ... it's exciting to read about it as it happens.

    So for now, relax and rest-up, because I am sure your creative juices will begin to flow like a waterfall.

  3. Thanks so much Layney and Jaime
    I have been overwhelmed but am feeling myself come out of it. It is nice to have perspective from others. I must remember to celebrate where I am NOW, at this moment.
    I am currently reading the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle and it has taught me, albeit I'm slow on the lesson, to savor each moment. After all, it's really all that we have.