I rarely write about specific things that are personal to me, but I can't help it tonight.I just got the proofs back from my son's recent 4-year old photo shoot (here's one of us together). My heart burst with joy and emotion to see that beautiful little face, that face so full of promise and sheer happiness. That face so bright with innocence!
Four years ago, I quit my career to stay home with my little baby boy. It wasn't even a difficult decision. I was ready to stop the rat race and put myself into something that I felt really mattered. And when they put me in his arms after a difficult pregnancy, I was so relieved and soooo instantly bonded to him.
Four years ago, I quit my career to stay home with my little baby boy. It wasn't even a difficult decision. I was ready to stop the rat race and put myself into something that I felt really mattered. And when they put me in his arms after a difficult pregnancy, I was so relieved and soooo instantly bonded to him.
I remember wondering before he was born if I would bond with him in the way I'd seen other mothers bond to their children. I was adopted, and that experience taught me that mothers could leave their children as difficult as it might be for the promise of a better life. When I met my birthmother years later I realized just what an incredible sacrifice it was to leave your child to the trust of somemone else with the hope that they would be whole.
The meaning of it hit me even more as soon as my own son was born; I couldn't imagine such a sacrifice, but I sure did love my birthmother even more for doing it. But as soon as he was out of my stomach, I vowed to that cooing little boy I would never leave him. He could always count on me, no matter what.
He'll be 4 years old this month, and I can't believe how fast the time has gone. I am so grateful for the past four years, of being able to be his mother and grow from him and learn so much from this little boy. He makes me want to be a better person. He makes me want to be the person I was meant to be...
Happy Birthday little man. Your mom loves you very much!
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Godspeed, by the Dixie Chicks:
Dragon tales and the water is wide
Pirate’s sail and lost boys fly
Godspeed, by the Dixie Chicks:
Dragon tales and the water is wide
Pirate’s sail and lost boys fly
Fish bite moonbeams every night
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
The rocket racer’s all tuckered out
Superman’s in pajamas on the couch
Goodnight moon, we’ll find the mouse
And I love you
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
God bless mommy and match box cars
God bless mommy and match box cars
God bless dad and thanks for the stars
God heard amen, wherever you are
God heard amen, wherever you are
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Godspeed
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
Godspeed
Godspeed
Happy Birthday to your handsome little guy!
ReplyDeleteBeing at home with my kids has been the biggest blessing. They grow so quickly and I am thankful to be able to watch it all happen :)
What a sweetie! And a very touching entry : )
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies for your wonderful comments. I was never a softie until I had Evan. He melts my heart. :-)
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, that photo is fantastic! You can see how much he adores his Mommy!
ReplyDeleteah, that song makes me cry...every time.
ReplyDeletebeautiful picture!
What a beautiful bond you two have together. Thank you for sharing this touching post. I became a stay at home mom as well when I had my kids (a 2 yr old and a 6 month old). I agree with Monica, they grow incredibly quick and I feel truly blessed that I'm able to stay home to be with them every day. I know many parents (moms in particular) who would do the same, but their circumstances make that option nearly impossible.
ReplyDeleteI also just read your post about someone copying you. That's just wrong on so many levels. But kudos to you for taking the high road. I believe that the karma of the universe will take care to keep things right. :)